March 2011
1 post
Blurred.
February 2011
1 post
Tonight Was An "I Fail At Life Night."
Not.Good.
January 2011
2 posts
I Have No Thoughts.
Nothing to post.
No insights.
Nothing but Solitude.
December 2010
3 posts
Dear Jesus.
Help her.
Help my family.
Help the doctors.
Help her test to come back negative.
Help me.
Help Valley.
Help Khari.
Help Jerry.
Help Kelsi.
Help Danny.
Help Esch.
And most of all,
Help us all to trust You above all else.
“You know better than I, you know the way”
It’s time to put on the armor of the Lord.
It took me so long to realize it, but.
Family, Music&Simba. That’s all I need.
November 2010
1 post
What Do I Want To Do Next Year?
AmeriCorps?
Concordia?
SVSU?
Crawl in a hole and not have to worry about growing up?
The last one?
Ohh okayy!
October 2010
2 posts
Goodbye, job.
That was one of the roughest conversations ever. It’s time to let her go. She needs this.
Letting go hurts.
But the sadness I’m feeling and tears I’m shedding are because I know this needs to happen. I know it will hurt her but it’s time.
“So make the best of this test and don’t ask why. It’s not a question, but a lesson learned in time.”
I Bought A Dress.
A legit dress.
It’s black and white and adorable.
I bought a dress.
September 2010
2 posts
Tonight.
Take a drink and drown it all out.
Anonymous asked: how are you today? :]
Fake.
Don’t be fooled- it’s all a show.
August 2010
3 posts
Lola.
My pet fish Lola died last night.
I think it’s a sign.
July 2010
23 posts
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you...”
– Jeremiah 29:11 (via alyssaalzate)
Day 12- A Letter To The Person Who Has Caused You...
Dear Self-
you suck.
Day 7-A Letter To Your Ex Crush.
Hellllo!
We were pretty tight, huh? Sorry I ruined that. You were good to me. We were really good friends. You always made me laugh. I was just so jealous of her and it really tore us apart. I wanted what you guys had. I attatched myself to you and I let your rejection allow me to hit rock bottom. Sorry about that. Anyways. I still miss and love you, friend! Let’s catch up soon, okay?
=]
Day 6-A Letter To A Stranger
Dear Stranger:
No matter how alone you may feel, I guarantee that there’s always someone out there who will love you.
Never give up on Jesus. He’s the only thing that’s ever going to get you through.
And please. If you ever feel like giving up, reach out for help. I believe that one day, even if it takes months or even years, it has to get better than this eventually.
...
Whoever is reading this.
Always remember that you are beautiful. Everyone, in their own way, has a beauty that is radiant and admirable. Don’t let your physical appearence, a dumb boy, a fucked up situation or any hardship define you.
Overcome your struggles and come out stronger and more beautiful than ever.
=]
Day 5- A Letter To Your Dreams
Dear Dreams:
I kind of hate you. I hate you because I want you so bad, but I know I never will. I’m okay with that, but every once in a while you cross my mind and it hurts a little. But occasionally I let myself imagine what my life would be like with you. And it’s fun. I’m not fit to handle you. If you came true I’d fall apart- I know that. But it’s still nice to...
Backwards.
This is not what I wanted.
Day 4- A Letter To Your Siblings.
Dear Sissy.
You know you’re my favoritest person in the wholewide world. =] I’m so glad that you invited me to spend some of my summer in Boston with you. I’m having tons of fun! This will probably be the longest we’ve been together in what? 4 years? I’m glad I get to be around you. I know the apartment is crammed and you’re going crazy because you can’t...
Day 3- A Letter To Your Parents.
Dear Daddy.
Your sense of humor is quite awful. And you embarrass me a lot at school. But you also love me unconditionally. You always give me what I need and even when it’s uncomfortable for you. you always do what you think is best for me and I thank and love you for that. I also really admire your caring personality. Especially for your students. And I admire you for staying with Mommy...
Day 2-A Letter To Your Crush.
Dear Mr. Taye Diggs.
Your voice is amazing. And so is your ass. =] in fact I would put both of them on my list of my favorite things.
“raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens. Bright copper kettles and warm Wollen mittens! Brown sexy booty and taye’s lovely voice. These are a few of my favorite thingssss!”
Hahah.
Taye diggs, I love you. And if You an idina ever decide to...
Day 1- A Letter To Your Best Friend.
Twins:
I know you’re family, but you two are my best friends. In every single circumstance, you’ve been right there with me. Even when I didn’t deserve your friendship. Even when you probably wanted to kill me. Even when I hurt you guys, you were always there. We’ve always been inseperable, and I know that if I ever need anything, you girls have my back. Next year is...
This should be interesting. =]
Write a letter a day to the designated individual:
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day...
Cassie.
Somewhere in between all the hustle and bustle of going to Boston, Cassie, my stuffed animal, was lost. I miss her dearly. Especially right now.
“I’ll never let you down. I’ll never walk off and leave you.”
– Jesus via The Message.
June 2010
18 posts
Hit and Miss.
I knew it would hit me soon. Well, it’s definitely hitting me now. I miss it. I miss my home away from home. I miss my friends. I miss Santa Ana. I miss my team. I miss the Masons. I miss the habitat staff. My heart aches for the people there. They have so little physically, yet so much emotionally. The people of El Salvador give me hope that people can change. They give me hope that...
Torn.
I feel torn between two worlds. Here and there. My house and my home. As I sit here on the roof, I think of the numerous lessons that this beautiful country has taught me. I think about how I’m the person I want to be when I’m here. I think about the deep and amazing friendships I’ve made, despite the language barrier. I think about the presence of Jesus and how close He feels to...
1 tag
Goodbyes.
We leave the hotel tomorrow to go to the resort, then head home early Sunday morning. It’s weird. Last year me and becca just knew we were coming back. But the project will be finished soon, and there won’t be anything to come back to. I know I’ll do a lot of mission work, but El Salvador will always be the place where it all began. I’ve made this country my second home. I...
Feel.
I feel too much all at the same time. Happy. Sad. Love. Resentment. Admiration. Anger. Joyful. Shocked. Overcome. Lacking. Strong. Weak. Tired. Restless. Comfortable. Scared.
It’s all there. I don’t know what to do with it.
Toys And The Love Of Jesus.
Today was rough. I was exremely tired to begin with. I got assigned to the lovely task of shoveling. It was really hard. I was pretty exhausted when it was break time. We went down to the community center for some pinapple and a nice break. Then Luis told us we were going to go see the children in the daycare and give them the toys that we brought. Tim asked me to help him distribute the toys. I...
Love.
Things I love: El Salvador. Roofs. Dancing in the pouring rain. Spanish. Being free. Late night talks with total strangers. Letting go. Moving on. My amazing friends. My cousins. My mission team. My daddy. The masons. The habitat staff. Lake coatepeque. Laughter. Quincenera parties. Dancing. Building homes. Building friendships. And most of all, Jesus! La Esperanza es Jesus. =]
Day 1.
Well, I’ve kind of survived my first day. I’m already sick (but I knew that would happen). The flights went well and thankfully I got some sleep during them to make up for the 1 1/2 total hours I’ve gotten the past two nights. What I didn’t expect was the extreme culture shock. Last year it was sad but nothing like this year. I guess it’s because i’m...
Goodbye, My Almost Lover. →
Jamie!
I love you jamieeeeee! Okay so before you read the song you have to know a few things. First of all, it’s not really a goodnight song. Just a regular song. Oh well. It’s to the tune of “here’s to the nights” =] and I skipped the “are you willing” part cuz I wasn’t creative enough to come up with any more. I’ll sing this to you on Wednesday when...
